I could have done better
Contributed by Rtr Harnniann
“I could have done better”
The above is one of the worst things to be said to oneself. It implies that you did not try your best, there were things you knew you could have improved but nevertheless you failed to do so.
What could be more terrible than knowing very well that things were within your reach but you simply failed to put in extra miles to get it?
When I was a student, things were much straightforward. Efforts could be easily measured. How many hours you revise your exercise books per day? How much time you spend in the library doing research? What kind of grades you get? The questions that you answered wrongly in exams, were you able to answer them correctly had you spent extra time on revision or paid more attention in class?
But now since I am no longer in the educational system, things become wide and uncertain. You can never be too sure whether what you are doing now is actually the best thing to do. Or the way you are doing it is the best way to do it.
I see many job seekers, after finishing university, they simply send out CVs or resumes to companies. It is like shooting blindly at the tree tops then wait and see whether any bird drops dead.
Once you are hired, you start the normal routine of a working class without asking too much question. After all wasn’t that what we were taught in school? Get great grades, look for jobs, work hard, feed yourself, and then think about how to take care of your loved ones and community.
How many of us really say, “wait a minute, why am I here? Why am I making phone calls to strangers and asking for money due and owing to my boss? Why am I calculating and analyzing the company’s past years’ accounts and performance? Do I really enjoy what I am doing? Is this really what I had hoped for all this while? Or am I doing it because I have no choice?”
Do I have a choice? Is this the right choice? Or maybe I could have done something better?
Or am I just thinking too much? Maybe I should just bury my head and continue with whatever I am doing, take whatever that comes along and learn to live with it.
Life seems a lot easier when you don’t question it. But is that the life you want?
The above is one of the worst things to be said to oneself. It implies that you did not try your best, there were things you knew you could have improved but nevertheless you failed to do so.
What could be more terrible than knowing very well that things were within your reach but you simply failed to put in extra miles to get it?
When I was a student, things were much straightforward. Efforts could be easily measured. How many hours you revise your exercise books per day? How much time you spend in the library doing research? What kind of grades you get? The questions that you answered wrongly in exams, were you able to answer them correctly had you spent extra time on revision or paid more attention in class?
But now since I am no longer in the educational system, things become wide and uncertain. You can never be too sure whether what you are doing now is actually the best thing to do. Or the way you are doing it is the best way to do it.
I see many job seekers, after finishing university, they simply send out CVs or resumes to companies. It is like shooting blindly at the tree tops then wait and see whether any bird drops dead.
Once you are hired, you start the normal routine of a working class without asking too much question. After all wasn’t that what we were taught in school? Get great grades, look for jobs, work hard, feed yourself, and then think about how to take care of your loved ones and community.
How many of us really say, “wait a minute, why am I here? Why am I making phone calls to strangers and asking for money due and owing to my boss? Why am I calculating and analyzing the company’s past years’ accounts and performance? Do I really enjoy what I am doing? Is this really what I had hoped for all this while? Or am I doing it because I have no choice?”
Do I have a choice? Is this the right choice? Or maybe I could have done something better?
Or am I just thinking too much? Maybe I should just bury my head and continue with whatever I am doing, take whatever that comes along and learn to live with it.
Life seems a lot easier when you don’t question it. But is that the life you want?
Labels: Opinion
posted by harnniann at 6:31 pm
4 Comments:
IPP,
Your previous article and the current ones make you sound like someone going through his pre-mid crisis.. Was it my Question post on u "Whats worth living in our country as a chinese citizen?" that eventually created a "nightmare" for u? LoL..(Ma dont read newspaper, dont watch tv, dont go online lo..sound familiar?)Lol.....
Mentioning it..every job has its own profession in a way la, regardless clerical, managerial or top ranking job..Doing what u like or not is another question..Hey, i even tot of applying as an air stewardess before!
Maybe it's time for u to start a family lar..make u to look forward to life..(when can i own my dream house ;))
Need to say i am glad to know RAC Port Klang Centennial, and the web master that realize the club's existence (minus the minutes ;p)
Dear Anonymous,
I am sure we all know who you are but should you feel not revealing yourself, I will respect that.
Thanks for the comment. Yeah, until you pointed out, I did not realise I was going through mid life crisis at twenties.
But please do not treat this article as just another cry/complaint of a wounded young man.
I try to bring out important messeges in my writings. That, I guess, is more important than the grouses.
"Take the sudden turn" is always my motto
that's right, it's about time to go Cambodia for your honeymoon IPP!
Aik..it's me lar~
.....just that i could only see but not read the identity options button..my bad (hehehhe)
Not at all did i see it as an article of grouses but something really to THINK about..
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